Hey akshay, you were asking me to start blogging about my experience of living in a foriegn local,which is breathtakingly beautiful. Scotland is my new home. But unfortunately I am doing so after this traumatic incident which actually tried to make me weak but iam sure it woudnt never win against me. I am having great time here with my hubby but nothing can soothe the pain that I feel when I think of my home, my parents, and my so many loved ones. May be this emotional stress was taking a toll over me for quite a few days. I had been suferring from a serious and unbearable headache for last three days but could not make it out in which part of brain was paining. It seemed like thousands of ants are eating away my brain and a long long syringe has been pierced into my right ear. Totally ignorant about what was hapening to me, I was totally into my daily household chores and activities. Yesterday , while I was preparing breakfast for abhi, I suddenly noticed I was unable to close my right eye. I thought it might be because of not sleeping properly for last few days. I was again taking lightly untill I noticed my lips turning towards left and I was unable to speak anything properly. I was taken aback. Now it was no more a joke to me. Oh my god! I had lost my smile:(. Abhishek and I rushed to the nearby hospital without making any delays and approached the emergency department. Within half hour a pretty young doc attended me. Tears were drizzling from my eyes constantly and abhi was standing besides me holding my hand firmly. A little smile on his face convinced me that everything would be fine. Lindsey, my doc did a long check up and diagnosed me with an acute disease, called bell's pasly because of which the right side of face had become paralytic. I was totally into shock and my brain had gone numb. Why on the earth it happenned to me but life is unexpected and anything can happen. She told me to have patience as this disease is 99 percnt curable. I was so negative that I was just thinking about that one percent. We came back home. I was still in to depression. Things got worst when I could not eat properly. Water was drooling out of my mouth and that was hell , believe me. Abhi was helping me out with it feeding me with a spoon. I was looking at him and crying. I could not utter a single word how it felt. I dint like seeing myself in to the mirror with a distorted face. Suddenly the mirror had become my biggest enemy. With my broken and not so clear words and tear filled eyes I was just repeating onething to abhishek; abhi I have lost my smile!.
I dint want to disturb my parents with this news so I asked abhi to call up akshay and ask him to convey the message to my parents. Just to make sure everything was fine at home I called up my mom and talked to my mom. I could feel a lump in her throat. she asked me to come online on turn on the webcam. Just to chill me up and tell me how pretty I looked she showed to me marriage album. Though it was making me more depressed but I still loved watching it. Thts all my lovely mother could do.
Rashmi , poonam and askhay, you are my greatest support in life. Thanks to you all, gradually I am learning to
Cope up with it and just trying to keep myself patient. I can now imagine how my father dealt up with his paralytic hand. Papu ka strong baby Hun mein. I have not learnt to give up in my life. I have full fAith on my patience and strong will power that would make me get well soon very soon. Anyway my purpose of writing my experience is to create awareness about this dearful
and depressing disease. Please pray for me :) want to see myself smiling again confidently standing in the front of the mirror, and proudly telling myself, yes finally I am the winner. :)